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So here I am still stuck at 210 pounds.... I don't even want to update you about what's going on. I'm eating healthy and going to start exercising at the gym again. Hoping for the best because I hate seeing 210 pounds. Plateaued now for what? 3 months? Fucking ridiculous, but I'm not stopping now.

I'll be back when I'm down to 200.

Stats

I realized I didn't do this yet. Just for future records:

Name: S**** ********
Age: 19
Height: 5'8''
Starting Weight: 227
Goal Weight: 180
Current Weight: 208

Fuck Pictures/Post Thanksgiving update

Well I haven't given an update in awhile since Thanksgiving I think so I'm here. I know there aren't many people reading this but who cares. I'm in my seat, listening to Dilla's Beat CDs, and in the mood to type stuff about my weight loss journey.

My Thanksgiving was great, or started off great. I saw my family which was great, I really missed my mom and godmother (and still do), they're such great supporters of my diet. I don't give myself much credit for my diet, but they seemed really surprised about how "skinny" I was (around 20ish pounds). Thanksgiving was great and so was black friday, in which I was able to spend a lot of time with them. Friends were not in the city, or maybe I wasn't invited but fuck that shit I really don't care. One downside obviously was the amazing food, from 4 star restaraunts to the kare kare. And I heard the statistic on TV about how the average American gains 7 pounds from Thanksgiving to the end of the year, and I understood why when I stepped on the scale when I got home. I was at 215, 5 pounds heavier than when I arrived in San Francisco.

So for the last few days I've been readjusting back to my diet and exercise regimen. Oh, because of the +5 lbs, I kinda question whether I'll be able to control my eating habits when/if I'm living back home, because it is easy to control my appetite a little better solo than with family or friends. Whatever. So as of today I'm back at 210 pounds and starting Wednesday, ready to step up my diet/exercise to the next level. My plan is to eat ~1000 calories a day and burn ~1200 calories a day or 2 hours worth of exercise.

I've also found great motivators since arriving. First is my love of nice clothing. It seems that I have a great interest in buying a pair of Japanese denim and would love to one day be able to fit in a pair of Diors or any sort of tapered slim fitting denim, but unfortunately I cannot fit in them with a fat ass which I currently have. So I'm looking forward to one day wearing an expensive pair of jeans. Thank you Superfuture. P.S. I bought a Spiewak Peacoat in Size Medium which looks pretty badass, and what amazed me is that I was able to fit (snuggly) in them. Size M? Must be fatass American sizing.

Another motivator is a great site called caloriecount.help.com which has a calorie count/food logger, burn counter, and forums. In the past, I've done all the calorie counting in my head, but now I'm able to see the exact amount of calories and nutrients I'm getting. It also has a function that grades your daily meals and recommends meals by comparing your eating habits with other people. I was also able to find out that I am a "excessive eater" which I completely agree with. I'm doing a better job at controlling portions, most likely because I'm eating more. I would also categorize myself as an "emotional eater" too. I tend to eat when I'm bored or when I feel lonely or like shit.

To be honest, the best part of my weeks (so far) have been my time binging, because I get to eat 2 large fast food meals while watching Curb Your Enthusiasm/The Office/Seinfeld. That's a great combination of feelings right there: happiness from the food (i love fast food, fuck how bad it is), laughter from the comedies. I'm trying to move away from binge days, and I doubt I'll be able to get past it this week.





As far as what I'm listening to, I've tried sitting down to listen to the new Ghostface album but I haven't been able to give it a full listen. The Rae/Meth song is great, but I really wish alot of the beats would get away from 1970s sample driven beats. A facelift would really be great for Meth. Tis a shame the Wu album sucks as well.

Frustration

Well, I haven't checked my weight since my last post, but I thought I was making great progress. Almost 1000 calories burnt a day (2 hours of cardio), 5 days a week, and around 1,500 calories eaten in small portions. But apparently that's not good enough, so I actually gained weight and am back at 210 pounds.

You don't even know how frustrating this is. I'm going back home for Thanksgiving obviously 10 pounds off my goal, and will probably gain 5 pounds from the big Turkey dinner. I really don't understand my body, one month and zero pounds lost? FUCK THAT SHIT, SERIOUSLY.

Fuck God.

Breakthrough!

Well, I have slightly good news today. I gave in and broke out the scale yesterday night and weighed myself and found myself at 210 pounds (which I've been stuck at for 2 weeks). This morning, I found myself at 206-207 pounds which is such a great breakthrough but I'm honestly not trying to get my hopes up. My weight fluctuates so I'm skeptical of it, as it may be water weight or just my mind playing tricks on me. But for now, I've broken through my plateau, SON!

Two weeks till Thanksgiving in San Francisco, so 6 more pounds to my goal! 3-4 pounds per week is my goal, so wish my ass luck!

Well, two or is it three weeks till Thanksgiving? And I really want to impress my family (or friends if I decide to see them) with my weight loss. I've kinda built it up as well, telling my mom and godmother that I've lost 20 pounds and that I'm feeling great. But on the outside, I'm not noticing anything at all, and since I've plateaued in the last few weeks it's almost as if my diet has stopped working. But I'm hoping to go hard within the next week.

One thing I want to address is my enjoyment of hot food at Whole Food's. I go there when I want to get my comfort-food on, it's really the only time when I get to enjoy some herbal/tasty schitt and I don't even have to be at home! But I've been wondering about how healthy the stuff actually is. I'm sure the chicken are free lance and foods lacking in preservatives, but fat is still fat and carbohydrates are still carbohydrates. I may as well get something cheaper at Boston Market, and I think I will.

I'm going grocery shopping tomorrow and I'm looking forward to cutting down on Carbohydrates to bring my daily calorie count down to 1,500 (can't believe 1700 is still too high for my fucking body). Plan getting some veggies, frozen fish, eggs, bananas, apples, some sandwhich stuff, and NOT hot dogs. Those hot dogs are so good, and while kinda low in calories, they're pretty high in fat. And I ate two of those with rice for dinner nearly every night for the past couple weeks.

Gonna be a good week to workout to also. Believe it or not I have yet to listen to the U.G.K. album and I hear that's one of the great releases of this year. Pretty surprising how many good albums actually have come out this year, compared to the tepid shit that came out in 2006. That, the new Jim Jones (don't understand what he's saying about jigga, he's got a horrible diss track but also has a few accappellas on there), hopefully new Cam'ron double disk, and the new Nas single.

Oh, also I'm looking forward to listening to the Clipse We Got it for Cheap Mixtapes while in the gym, I'm really excited to hear new material from them. Pusha T and Malice are two of my favorite MC's. (Sidenote: I hear We Got it for Cheap 3 is coming out in the 4th quarter)

Yesterday

I fucked up major yesterday. I was having a good week... Well actually no. I've been going to the gym for 2 hours burning nearly 1000 calories and eating around 1700-1800 calories but I guess my body has found a way to fuck my life over even if I'm eating healthy, so I have not lost weight in 2 weeks. Seriously, what the fuck is that?

I've gone on websites and calculated my daily calorie intake necessary to keep me at my current weight, which is 2,800 OR IS IT 3,800? Nonetheless, I eat 1000 less than that, and burn off another 1000 calories off a day. That's 2,000 calories lost every day, which adds up to 14,000 calories a week or 3-4 pounds. But nope, my fucking body has kept me stuck at 210 pounds for 2 weeks. WHERE THE FUCK DO THOSE CALORIES GO?

I swear to god, I start eating healthy and get my shit together and my body completely stops cooperating. Not even healthy people eat how I've been eating and these dudes weigh 40 pounds lighter than me. I understand the concept of hitting a plateau, but seriously what the fuck? Fuck a plateau, fuck my body, seriously feels as if God or my body is trying to stop me from being healthy, what a load of shit.

Anyway, yesterday I was watching Season 3 of the Office and I guess I was bored and sorta depressed so guess what? Due of my low willpower I got the 6 Dollar Burger meal from Carl's Junior, but not only that! I got another meal with a Frosty from Wendy's. Fuck that shit, I feel horrible.

But I'm back on my diet, and I've lowered my daily calorie intake (hopefully) to 1300, and keeping my cardio at 600 calories per day. I really really hope to lose some weight this week. I want to get back to San Francisco and see my family for Thanksgiving weighing 200 pounds flat. So, 10 pounds in 3 weeks, wish me luck!

Oh, I'm about to hit the gym in a few, going to listen to the Jim Jones Mixtape which just leaked. Never been a fan of Jones and his fucked up voice, but whatever, Dipset bitch. AYE AYE AYE.